Day Dream........

I have been day dreaming at work a lot lately........ counting down to the day of our 3-week long vacation. We will be spending two weeks in M'sia and a week in Mauritius. Geography lesson: It is a volcanic (a dormant one, of course) island in the Indian Ocean to the east of Madagascar. I look forward to seeing families and friends in M'sia too, but it is Mauritius that I can't wait to visit! I have to constantly caution myself not to put too much anticipation in the trip so i don't get disappointed in case everything is not the way i imagine it to be. But it is hard to resist!!!!!

But deep down, I know I have a bigger problem than not being able to focus at work because of an upcoming vacation. It had been very difficult to come to work since early 2005. Work feelt like a prison to me all the times. I thought maybe it was the company (well, let's just say that the shop is not going to make Forbes' list of best place to work for anytime soon.), so I went to work for somebody else doing different thing in a similar industry. The new stint managed to keep my attention for about 10 minutes, and now I'm back to usual boredom 6 monnths into it. And this is definitely a better place to work for than the former one. I'm not half as motivated as I used to be; and I can't concentrate. I simply .... don't care anymore. I find my work dry, boring, stressful, meaningless and spend most of my work hours dreaming about doing something else. And at the end of the day, i felt beaten up no less. It is sucking all the life force out of me. I do understand one needs to make a living, so I hang on, but for how much longer?

Is this what they call the quater life crisis? Should I be doing something about it? Or is it just a temporary crisis? Maybe I should call Dr. Melfi.